just lost a beautiful baby

I just wrote like one of the longest and best entries i have ever written in my life and then my computer just crashed and its gone. I put so much thought and work into it. Iam seriously sitting in front of my computer and tears are rolling down my cheeks. It took me like 2 hours to write it. It took me two fucking hours to write that shit and now its just fcking not here anymore. I HATE MY COMPUTER SO BADLY. AND IAM SO PISSED. Man..... Why... I was so into it man. I couldnt rewrite it. Cos iam not anymore. Now iam just sad. But i really wanna speak out or write down what i thought. But iam so sad. Because i know that even if i rewrite it, it wont be as good as when i was still into that topic. Have i mentioned that iam sad ? And pissed ? And that if my computer had a face, id punch it in its face ? GOSH....