once again

About my depressions and my confidence problems. It's not like I always have them. Most of the time iam a rather cheerful person, carefree and happy. It's just when i spend too much time with myself and do nothing but looking at other people and their achievements that i just feel inferior and bad about myself. Like yesterday and today up to the point when i started hanging out with my friends, i felt really really low. I had nothing else to focus on somehow. But when i spend time with others, they distract me. We talk about other topics, have fun, laugh and life is good again. I have way too high expectations of myself and i should go easy on me...