"I don't remember the beauty of loving someone. I only remember the pain and the tears. Having left scars on my soul. To always remind me that I once used to love." // " Underground obersvations: Couples fight. I think. Against each other instead of for each other. Isn't that sad ?" // "memories fade. excitement fades. everything fades. in infinity loops my mind is being put back to this empty state. reset. reset. reset. where is my strength to break out of this circle ?" // "ASPIRATION OF MY HEART. unconditional love. no questions. no answers. no expectations. bare personality. confronting each other, creating love." // "how can i like so many things. so many people. i want to soak it up. everything. everyone. everything to be inside of me. in my head. in my heart." // The written word. Liberating me from pain. Releasing. The sorrows from my mind."
Writing has always been my way of dealing with emotions and especially sadness. Whenever i was sad from a fight with my mom i would blog about it, not for the publishing reason but for the reason of writing down my feelings. Over the years i have become more cool and rational about my emotions and i handle them on a completely different level now. In short sentences. Poems. Notes. I dont write long essays of complaint anymore, explaining every single thing on my mind in detail. I try to keep it minimal and straight to the point. Enough to satisfy myself. Enough to inform the kids about my state of mind. And thats it. Above you see a little collection from the words i released on my tumblr last year. I had to change the arrangement of the words for this blog because they would look weird in with their original appearance.