Two sides of a coin.

I do my best and work my hardest to get acceptance in this society. I want to be part of it, measure happiness with success, but at the same time I hate it. Sometimes I just want to grab a book and get lost. I want to know nothing about this ambitious world, in which everyone has to be special to be looked up to. Or at least not looked down upon. Sometimes I just want to stop trying and go with the flow of people who just live life instead of creating it with every force of their body. Sometimes I want to step back and look at life from the edge. Enjoy the view from the peripherie instead of trying to fight my way to the center.