First week back

I must admit that my first week in Berlin was anything but productive. I was lazy, unproductive and ate so much, I gained one kg despite having gone to gym several times. I ate so much, just thinking of it makes me feel sick. I didnt make my lists, I didn't get most of the things done I wanted to get done. Just horrible. I played a lot. I did work, as in doing lash extensions, but besides that I didn't get much other work done. Have I mentioned that I ate a lot ? My level of discipline was bottom low. I didn't go to uni on two days because I wasn't able to catch up with all the Chinese in that one week because, as I already mentioned, I was lazy. I did study, but not hard enough. Everyone has those days. I'm not that much of a natural when it comes to working hard actually. I have to force myself with every piece of my body. Like this morning, when I got up for uni after only three hours of sleep. But once I was out and about I felt amazing, because I was able to get up. DO the things you have to do. Once they are done you feel great. And that feeling should motivate you to keep going ! I still need to figure something out about my fucked up eating habit though. The problem with me is... Once I start eating a lot again my stomach gets bigger too, and I automatically end up being able to eat more. And then I gain weight easily. So I have to be really strict on me, which is rather hard. I still have the home bleaching stuff from Vietnam, which I didn't use after I got my teeth bleached. Might do it now, for three days, and then maybe not being able to eat much for three days gets me back to eating less. No matter how many times a week you go to gym, eating a lot will kill all your hard work. I'm back on track now and will try my fucking best again from this day on to finally get my dream body. I hate all this belly fat so much. I'm still on my journey, that's why I don't want to do a blog entry about it yet. Accompany me on this journey. If I can make it, I'm pretty sure you can, too ! See what a lazy bum I actually am ?