Everyday Sunday

To me, Sundays and holidays have never been days of relaxation. I don't know why. I always spend those days working. Because I don't like the calmness that expects me on the streets on Sundays. It feels odd and wrong to me. At work, especially in gastronomy there are no such days as Sundays or holidays in terms of resting. Everyday means work. Every day is equal. It was a holiday in Bavaria today, and instead of going swimming with my mom and sister I stayed home and worked on my website while watching "Teen Mom 2". Before I always thought, 'oh come on, you quit school and work and everything just because you were stupid enough to give birth to a child at 17 ?!' Which is pretty mean. Because a child is nothing to be blamed for. A baby is heaven on earth. But hell at the same time. Even if you are two people, a child is still super exhausting. We are three people at home atm and everyone still feels fed up at some point. So you either are super duper duper ambitious and strong and manage to do everything at once, or you end up like these girls on TV. I guess I'd be of the second kind lol. I just take care of my sister for very short periods of time and feel exhausted already. I can't get anything else done, because my sister requires so much attention. Good thing she wnt swimming with my mom today and I had the home by myself. I got some things done. At last. My new online shop is almost ready. It's just missing the pictures from the shooting iam planning right now. Can't wait.

I don't feel very pretty these days, thats's why i prefer to stay at home. 

I don't feel very pretty these days, thats's why i prefer to stay at home. 

Where I can be as retarded as I want to be haha.

Where I can be as retarded as I want to be haha.